I am 18 now. Birthday today. yay or whatever.

Merry Christmas bitch.

we holly AND jolly fr

Hey, sorry to leave everyone about a year or so ago. In this post i will be

• Explaining why I left
• Explaining what I've been up to
• My Plans for NG

Why I just, vanished, apparently.

Honestly, I can't remember. What I do know is that my mental health was on a STEEP decline, and I needed to do something about it. I deleted my account here and never returned UNTIL a year later (now-ish). I was LOW man, I felt like I lost all my friends irl and a decent amount on NG, I had trouble functioning as a human being. Pretty much, I lost my will to live. I decided to take that time to focus on other things, all personal, will not get into that. Now that I'm back here, I've accepted that it's easier to live with your shadow, instead of constantly trying to cover it. I needed to step back so things wouldn't get worse for me. I keep saying "it was drama" or "i wasn't doing good mentally" but really, I can't remember at this point.

What I've been doing with my life.

Gardening... and trying to expand my music to new horizons with a ragtag team of hillbillies and homosexuals (band). Overall i've just been spending time with my grandparents alot more, going places, meeting people, doing things. We've only got one shot at life and I don't wanna waste a good portion of it here. I've been trying to find and fulfill my purpose in life. I've been trying to be the best person I can be, because I can't start over new. I'll never be able to.

Music

• I do most of it in a band, any other experimental song or what the fuck ever that isn't metal or rock, it's going here.
• I've gotten MUUUCH better at guitar and i don't have to splice everything anymore.

Games

• I make games with a friend, as a duo. Again, it's IRL stuff and I don't wanna associate my online life with my life outside of the internet.
• If I post ANYTHING game related here, it's gonna be miniscule. I will try to partake in collabs, events and such, just not as much as I used to.

My Plans for NG

Not much bro. I will be helping CJ with the Fishing Collab as much as I can. I'm genuinely sorry to everyone that had done something for that collab. I'm sorry I just left you guys without warning. Other than that, I'm not gonna be doing any kind of serious project here. If anything, a hyperpop album, which i usually do. I'm at a point in life where i'm getting ready for everything to flip on its head so that also will contribute to my activity on this site.

Closing Regards:

• If you have any other questions, please DM me about it. Or comment here, idc honestly.

TL;DR

sry for vanishing, i almost killed myself, focused on my well-being, i'm doing great rn. ill take on the whole world.